Am I happy?

Happiness is an achievement brought
about by inner productiveness.  People
succeed at being happy by building a
liking for themselves.

Erich Fromm


Its funny. When I think about am I happy I hear the old tapes (my internal critic) start up in my head. The ones where I shouldn't care if I am happy or not. What matters is everyone else around me. Are they happy? If they aren't happy they might start yelling and screaming. If they are yelling and screaming then I can't think. Well actually it is just one person that did the yelling and screaming. I haven't lived with him on a permanent basis since I was 7 or 8. He is no longer in my life but I still am affected by the screaming and yelling.

So am I happy? Yes I am happy but I have work to do. I need to work on my happiness. That is what this recovery is about. Being happy in my own skin with my thoughts. Owning my life and being happy with it.